marmalade skies

i wish i could feel

September 11, 2007

I heard about a friend's heart problem and I almost immediately felt envious.

At this day and age when it's easier to make something out of doubt than of faith, I say my friend is lucky that he feels what he feels- - - whether if his feelings remain unreciprocated or unrewarded or unappreciated shouldn't matter - - - the mere fact that, that feeling came and there's an actual person behind it, and it lasted long enough for his heart to ache are altogether a gift that I could only write about from imagination (or maybe from lack of it).

I'd rather feel my heart break, than wonder if it's still there, capable of feeling.

I don't think the butterflies will ever come.

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